this is a win

I awoke this morning to the squeaking of my 10 week old puppy, Barley, letting me know he was awake. So young, there is no waiting. When he is up, he needs to go out. I promptly took him out the front door and sat on the step as I waited for him to do his business. Immediately my brain turned on.
I have to do the obstacle course training plan that K* asked for. Tomorrow is M's birthday, need to order cake. Booked two pet sitters for this weekend, that didn't make sense. Haven't done the budget this week, wonder if we are overdrawn. One idea to the next, nothing being accomplished. I was simply sitting on the front stoop letting these interconnecting, yet, separate thoughts dart in and out of my mind.
It wasn't too long ago that this would increase my heart rate. I would sweat a bit. I would become overwhelmed quickly and retreat back to bed to try to steal a few more minutes of peaceful sleep before getting ready for work.
No, it wasn't too long ago that I would do that.
Today,  I stayed up. I started my routine and had time left to sit down and start working on that list. I didn't get it all done, of course, but I started.
This is a win. I didn't retreat. I conquered. Small victories are victories. Anxiety didn't win today, I did.

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